The Appearance of the Spirit
By Peter Deunov, Strength and Life vol. 1 - "Behold the Man!", Lecture 3, 20 Apr 1922
There are many questions that occupy the human mind, many questions that humanity has been occupied with in the past; there will also be such questions in the future. I will give you a short definition of the conception [poniatie ] "Spirit". Many minds have a vague conception of the Spirit. Even in the mind of people who have vast knowledge, this notion is vague. You will ask: "How is it possible for a man to be learned and his conceptions of the Spirit to be vague?" I answer: quite naturally. If you were deprived of vision and you had a painting in front of you, you would have quite a vague conception of it. Consequently, for the learned man, too, the conception of the Spirit can be vague. When we examine this question, we should take into account whether we have the appropriate feelings and capabilities to come into contact  with the true reality of things; because we can have a conception of the world and its regulations directly or indirectly, but these conceptions of ours will differ from one case to another. I will give you a short translation of the word "YX" [Spirit]. In Bulgarian this word has four letters . If we take the letter "" [D], it makes three angles and underneath the letter "" [P]; the three angles show the triunity of God, the three forces [sili ] which manifest. The letter "Y" [U] - two fingers, the index finger and the middle finger raised up, show that man's hand is doing something. The letter "X" [H], the cross - this is the manifestation of the force [sila ] which acts in four directions: the line which goes up and the other line which crosses it show man's manifestation, that is, the two forces [sili] which do not agree, which cross. When we raise a  finger upwards, this shows that we point to God, and when a man comes into opposition , this is the other line of the cross, it means the Spirit descends and defines this contradiction between God and His children. The letter "" [EU]  denotes the balance of the human mind which wants  to give people understanding of the basic laws . This interpretation I derive from the very letters of the word. Now, the other interpretation of the Spirit is: the manifestation of Its essence. Take, for example, the light which descends from above - this is the Spirit. We do not know what the Sun is; the scientists say that it is situated 92 million kilometers away  from the Earth; it may be so - we do not know; there can be a few million kilometers error in this calculation. If we decide to check, it is questionable whether we will find it at the point defined by the scientists. And what is the internal state of the Sun - a profound philosophy. Some say that it is liquid, some say - solid. It may be that one and the other is true. But of the light which descends, we already have a real conception, because we see that, which comes down from the Sun and reveals before our eyes the whole Earth with all the objects upon her. The Light is Spirit, Which comes down from the Sun and has direct contact with our life. To this Sun we can also liken the Spirit. He  will not descend otherwise , for if He descends, He will melt, like the Sun, everything we see around us; it [everything] will become dust and ashes or it will be turned into a gaseous state. This is why God says: "I will not come down, but will send through space My Spirit to bring people My blessing". This is why God does not want to come down to us but sends His Spirit - the Light. This Spirit, this creative capability, is exactly what builds within us. Everything we have, we owe to Him. This rational  force [sila] which is manifested by God, is defined by the learned people in terms  of laws, of force [sila], of relation between the elements etc - they give it different names. But this is a rational essence, which works ; this is [a] Spirit, Which creates laws.
The Spirit has a direct communication with our soul. Precisely  through the changes which occur in our soul world , we gain a conception of His origin. Without the soul we would not have any conception of the Spirit. The soul, with its way of thinking, [re]presents the Divine world within us. And if there is anything divine within us, it is the luminous soul, which thinks.  That is why, when we speak about man, we need to understand her [the soul]. Separate from man the rational soul - what is left is a regular animal on four legs; there is no other difference: he eats, sleeps and has all the needs and weaknesses of the animal. The Spirit manifests in the human soul. Because of this, man, in contrast to the other creatures, walks upright. Why is it that the other animals do not walk upright? Because they are at variance  with the Lord. Where they walk on all four legs, it shows that their will is in contrast to the manifestation of God. There will pass, maybe, thousands of years, and they will achieve that stage of man - to rise and to stand upright. We have elevated ourselves relatively, and we are striving to elevate ourselves more, for we want to come nearer to God, and to be in accordance with Him - there is a desire in us to follow the divine path. And if we make mistakes, we do them not out of ill will, but for other reasons, that lie in our past.
Now, it is said that this Spirit is given to everyone for benefit; in what exactly does this benefit consist? The word "benefit" itself has a certain content, because everyone works for benefit. The worker hoes a vineyard, but expects to be paid a wage of 2-3 leva . The wife does something for the husband, but she also expects something for Easter, for Christmas, for the festive occasions, for the summer season - everyone is always working for benefit. Some think that life is quite ideal; but what do they consider an ideal life? I understand the ideal life thus: to have harmony, accord in all our relations. Some wish to live in Heaven; but where is Heaven? Under the word "Heaven" we understand a state where complete order exists, where people keep their rights [prava] and responsibilities [zadaljenia] to each other. A man wishes to advance, but you hamper him, you delay his advancement by imposing on him your rules [prava], while you need to realize that you have obligations [zadaljenia] toward him. The chapter from the Gospel I have read shows what our relations should be. "But there are some meaningless things there" - you will say. A Russian proverb says: "Even in disorder there is order"  - even in the unseemly there is seemliness, I will say.
I will give an analogy, in order for you to understand from where stem the distorted  conceptions of things. For example, I give to someone a walnut and tell him to do research on it. Someone will do research on its taste, he will try the external green shell, he will bite it and will throw it away. I give the walnut to another person, he, quite sensible [blagorazumen] already, peels off its external green shell, but when he tries the second shell he breaks his teeth, and also throws it away. I give the walnut to a third person, he, however, even more sensible, peels off the external shell, breaks the hard nutshell with a stone, takes out the kernel and eats it. If we gather these three together and ask them what [sort of thing] a walnut is, one will say that the walnut is a fruit astringent, pungent and poisonous; the second - that it is a hard fruit that breaks people's teeth, the third - that it is something delicious and pleasant. This analogy can be adapted to our errors: all things in the world are wrapped in shells, and if we do not have enough knowledge, we will not find the essence. Food is necessary for the body, but also necessary is food for the mind and the soul; that is, we have to eat in two ways. And when we say that it is not good for a man to overeat, we understand that the body, the mind and the soul have to be equally fed. It is a whole triple circle, which forms the man. This is why those three [people] who pronounced themselves on the walnut, are not sufficiently clever. The one who ate the walnut thinks he is the cleverest. No! I give the walnut to a fourth person, he takes it, but instead of eating it, plants it and in 10 or 15 years this single walnut gives thousands of walnuts. So, we have four categories of people in the world, who philosophize [meudruvat]: some say: "The world is no good, lecherous, it is not worth living"; others say: "In it [the world] egoism rules, it cannot be worse"; third: "The world is good, pleasant"; they are closer to the truth. And who are the fourth? Those who have entered the divine school and have started studying i.e. started planting the good things. The best conception for man is to know that the Earth is a divine school, in which he is set to study, to learn to peel off the upper and the lower shell of the walnut, and not to eat the walnut but to plant it. And when he learns the properties of all things, he will understand the true meaning of the earthly life. And as a master sends his servants to the vineyard to work and gives them bread and tools necessary for the work, so God has given man the brain as a tool for work. What is it given for? To break stones or to try the bitter shell of the walnut? No, but to learn to plant the walnut. "Would I feel any better, if I only plant walnuts" someone will say, "I will not feel better". Under the word "walnut" we should understand the good thoughts, wishes  and acts which we can plant in others. This work will bring you prosperity. When you meet a certain resistance in achieving some wish, do not despair and do not give up: God has dressed a certain thought in three or four garments - one may not be favourable, but the other will be favourable. If you take off the bad garment, if you plant your thoughts in good soil, regardless of anything else, they will give good fruit. This is how I view the world. The evil is illusory [prividno]; these are the external shells of things. And people are seemingly [prividno] bad. Not that they are not bad, they are bad, but in essence they again are not bad, because evil cannot proceed from God. The bad originates from certain relations we have in the world. Two families live in one house, with four rooms; one family has more children, the other less, they start arguing first about the rooms, who will take how many rooms, and look - suddenly they have quarreled. I ask: why this quarrel about rooms? This is quite a negligible cause. And one of the families starts speaking about the other family: "They are people unreasonable", while the second one speaks about the other [(first) family] - the same. But in reality both families are unreasonable, because a reasonable man never quarrels. This word "kara" [= "quarrel" ] originates from a Sanskrit root: to quarrel means to be in darkness. People, who are in [the] light, do not quarrel. A certain manifestation in our brain darkens [pomrachava] our thoughts and then bad wishes follow. When we have enlightened thoughts we are ready to live in peace and accord; when, however, a small cloud [pomrachenie] comes, we are ready to change our relations. So, evil originates from the darkening [pomrachenieto] of the human mind. Now, because God knows that a certain darkness exists on Earth, which causes harm - the darkness always causes harm: if we were living permanently in darkness, it would cause an atrophy to all our feelings, eyes, ears etc., as there are certain fish, which have lived for years in the underwater caves and have lost the capability to see - He has sent precisely this Spirit to react upon us, upon our thoughts and feelings, upon the body, in order to think correctly about things and to establish a true conception about them.
In the first place we need to establish a right conception about ourselves, i.e. what our relation to God should be.  According to my understanding, the Earth is only a school for the individual human soul. If there is something real in the world, it is the human soul. Some ask themselves: "What am I?" - I am that which thinks, that which feels and desires. But every thought, every feeling and every desire has its own form. When you want to make a weapon, with which to kill people, how do you adapt it? You take certain practical considerations [into account] about what it should be - to be sharp, to be able to destroy. You make a ball for the children to play with: do you make it sharp? No. You make it round, smooth, in order not to cause harm to the child, because all things that are sharp are harmful. They say about someone that he has a refined mind; yes, if it is necessary to [wage] battle [voyouva ], he has to have a refined mind and explosive powers - wherever they hit, to shatter. But, when a man lives in a peaceful society, what need and what benefit does he have from such a sharp and fine mind? And if during the time of battling you put a man with a blunt mind at the helm, he is out of place as well. We have changed the order of things: we have put the blunt things with the sharp ones or vice versa. I am not saying that there should not be battling [voyouvane] on the Earth; battling in nature has two principles: one which destroys and one which constructs. But in [the] one and in the other there is a constant exhaustion. Not only when we love, but also when we hate, we exhaust ourselves, because the one who hates breaks stones and when we exhaust our life by breaking thousands of tonnes of stones, what meaning will life have for us? When we constantly think evil, we constantly break stones. But God, incidentally, needs this material as well: He will use our labour to make smooth roads, and people will indirectly thank us that we have crushed the stones necessary for their road. Whatever we do in the world, our labour will be useful, if not for us, then for others. In one case, if we love, we perform conscious work, in the other case unconscious [work], and consequently the reward cannot be one and the same.
Thus, if you wish the Divine Love to manifest itself, the Spirit must be in you, [you have] to give Him room to manifest himself. But the Spirit is a very delicate being; do not think that He will come to knock strongly on your door, no; he will knock quietly on the door of your heart and if you open, immediately your life will change completely, He will show you how to live; if He knocks on the door of your will, He will show you what to do and do it consciously. But if you do not open, soon you will understand what you have lost. When you meet an idiot, you have to know that in the past, when the Spirit had knocked on his door, he did not open [the door] for Him. You say of somebody that he is foolish. Why? Because when the Spirit once knocked on the door of is mind, he rejected Him. Whoever is violent, you have to know, that when the Spirit knocked on his heart, he also did not accept Him. Violence is like a crystal that does not have softness. But you should not think that among the violent people sometimes there are not good people; but in general they are not for an organized human society. And so, we must always be ready to give the Spirit place to penetrate  and to manifest in each of us.
Some say" "We want to see the Spirit". But the only thing you see is the Spirit. He speaks, but because your ears are blunt, you cannot hear, as when you speak to deaf people, they do not hear. You want to hear; good then! Adjust your ear to comprehend that, which the Spirit speaks to it. "I want to see the Spirit". Excellent, but if your eye is veiled, how will you see Him? The only thing that we see in the world, I repeat, is the Spirit. This flower here, which I hold in my hand - it is Spirit, and if you were able to see, you will observe a whole human figure in it. Now, why you are not able to see? Because your vision is restricted, you see only the dense parts, but the non-dense  parts you do not see. For example, some things seem round to you - the walnut; but if you plant it, will it grow a round stem? It will immediately express its essence. In order to recognize things, you need to plant them in their soil. And if you could plant this flower in this way, immediately you will see that it is an intelligent being. And what does this flower speak to you? Why is this colour is applied ? It is applied to show that life without love does not have meaning. And for thousands of years the flower has been speaking to people what they should do - that they should love, that the mind should be neither too sharp, nor too blunt. In some cases it has to be sharp, but when you are among clever people, you do not need wit . When you are among enemies, the heart has to be hard, among friends - soft. You must know how to love [obichate ]. When you take a rose and smell it, two things are manifested: one - the tender aroma, the other - thorns. Every man has his thorns, but of course, they are not the man. The thorns are for those conditions in life when man has to battle [voyouva], to defend himself, when he does not have to be very soft. You should not make rendezvous with the devils; against them you have to have spikes. But among friends your gunpowder has to be moist. There are times when it has to be dry and [times] when it has to be moist. What will the husband [meujaut ] do when his gunpowder is dry and his wife [jena ] teases him every day? When they get married, both of them have to make the gunpowder moist. In the world, your gunpowder has to be dry, just in case . . . This is an allegory, which I give so that you [may] learn all these relations existing in the world. You have friends and say that you know them, but until you learn both the dark and the bright side of your friends, you do not know them well. You want to be good always; you should be good under certain conditions and bad under others. When you anger your friend you already have to defend yourselves, and, in order to defend yourselves, you have to know how to battle [voyouvate]. If you fight with an enemy you are doing your duty; if you battle [voyouvate] with peaceful or unarmed people, you are doing a foolish thing. They say: "Life is a battle [borba ]". And man [meujeut], when he gets married, says: "Life is a battle [borba]". But against whom does he battle [voyouva]? Against his wife [jena], and the wife [jenata] against her husband [meujeut]. They give birth to children, and the children also read the motto: "Life is a battle [borba]" and say to themselves: "So, who do we fight with - brothers with sisters". And a fight starts, they pull each other's hair and bursting into tears here they go to mum and dad. People have a motto! When they do not have a real opponent, they create one - the husband [meuj] with the wife [jena], the brother with the sister, the priest with his parishers, the teacher with his pupils. Here we have people who do not understand life. The battle [borba] has to exist, but with that nature, which has to be subjugated. When we are to shatter a certain rock in the mountain, to bore a tunnel, I understand us acting like this, but to apply these means in an organized society, I do not understand. It shows that people do not understand the relation that exists between them and their spirit, the tasks that the latter sets to them.
Apostle Paul describes in the chapter [we] read what this relation should be. You may ask me the question: "Are there not in existence thousands of relations in the world?" - But we should choose only those, which are favourable for us. We should know, for example, the relations of the water towards us. If we put it in the stomach, there will be favourable consequences; if, however, we put it in the lungs, it will produce entirely different consequences. If we bring air in the lungs, it will be favourable for us, but if we put it in the stomach, it will have exactly the opposite result and so on. Things have relations to certain organs. We should know what the [right] place is for the water, the air, the light, the sound and the smell. You will say: "But we know these things - that the light is necessary for the eyes and the sound - for the ear". So. But do you understand the internal meaning of this light? In the morning, when the sun rises, what do you say to yourself? "Right , the sun has risen". But when somebody says: "The Teacher is coming", what do the students infer? All of them shuffle, take their books and sit at the desks. When the sun rises, each of us should take his book and say: "The Teacher-Spirit is coming" and sit at his desk and ask what he should perform  this day. The Sun says: "I will listen  to you, you will answer me, I will impart to you and you will impart to me". This is what the sunrise means.  If every day we can study  the program which our Spirit sets, life would flow  very favourably. "But", you will say, "today's sun looks like yesterday's, it rises in the same way ". - No! I have not seen in my life two days alike and the sun to rise in the same way ; every day differs from others and each has its own program. And the light which comes is not the same: it differs from the light which came several days ago. Here exactly is the greatness of the Divine Spirit, Who brings countless riches, invisible worlds and reveals what God is in Himself. He is something majestic . You meet a friend of yours and say: "[About] Ivan, how do you appraise him?" - "He is 1 1/2, or 165 cm tall, he has dense eyebrows, thickish lips, enjoys his food and loves to have a drink". But this is not important. A day comes [when] you come to love him and for you his thick lips, his external invisible defects already disappear - you begin to see something else in him. So, you take off the first shell of the walnut, you see his mind. If you plant him, half of the walnuts he will bear will be for you, the other half for him. If you eat him, what will you benefit? Neither you, nor Ivan will benefit. For when the Spirit comes, He says that every day you should plant better thoughts, better wishes. You meet a friend of yours and sometimes you say: "I do not know what to speak [about]". You see the people chatting a lot, but you do not know what to say or you speak many things, but not that, which you need. First, you have to plant the walnut and then talk as much as you want. Before you plant the walnut, do not speak. He, who has worked, comes back home and says: "I have worked, I am tired, I am hungry". The speech shows certain relations which exist between us and our actions. The first thing you should do every day is to ask yourself the question: "What fruit should I plant today?" If you plant a walnut, after time it will bring [forth] its riches in abundance. You will only understand this parable when you return, as you will , to the other world, where you have come from; then you will notice what benefit was brought by those good wishes and thoughts, which you have planted, the good deeds, which you have done for your neighbours, friends, wife [jena], children. Now these things are still dark for you. - Another example. You say to yourself: "This son, I feed him now, but who knows if he will look after me one day?" "Now I educate him, so that he will look after me when I get old". Do not expect him to look after you, when you get old. You may not even get old, you may pass away earlier without the need occurring for him to look after you. The mother says: "I wish I had a daughter to look after me in [my] old age". This is a very distorted  understanding of life. Give an upbringing to your children and do not expect anything for yourselves. If you have planted a good walnut in them, not only will they look after you, but they will also love you [obichat]. When a mother is not loved [obichana] by her children, it shows that she was unable to bring them up [well]. Hence, the first thing to do, so that your children would love [obichat] you, is to teach your children to love [obichat] you under the guidance of this Spirit.
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